Recently, I was out to dinner with my family and I watched a very pretty, young, thin waitress giving my husband the ole twinkly eye and I felt my self-esteem plummet. I think my husband is a handsome man and when I’m in my right mind, I know he’s pretty darn lucky to have me as his wife. But in that moment I hung my head and stared at the menu thinking, “I just don’t have it like I used to.” The huge zit that was erupting on my chin was no help either. I’m 36, I am a size 10 and I weigh 143 lbs. Eight years ago I was a size 2 and I was HUNGRY. I am just now finding the joy in being a luscious double digit. My intention is to eat for energy, to feel good, to set a positive example to my children, to heal my body. My biggest struggle is with my husband who stops at the store regularly to stock up on the types of things that I don’t buy. Things like Mt. Dew, Tasty cakes, pretty much anything that’s loaded with sugar… stuff that I love but that makes me feel like a drone. I’ll delve more into why we eat the way we do another time…
As a holistic health practitioner I meet with women who have body image issues. I’m disheartened that women in their 40s & 50s carry around incredibly negative feelings about the way they look. At 36, I’m just settling into this body. Am I 100 percent pleased with my body image? (more…)
